F*** Your Fire Arms

Guns could kill each and every last one us on earth and there would still be one last person standing up for their “2nd amendment right.” The battle was lost when we decided to put an object over people. Profits over people. Power over people. Semi-Auto Rifles over people. So I sit here today to no one’s surprise that there continues to be unnecessary, unexceptional, and horrendous crimes and mass shootings all too often. Week after week, day after day to have the American brain hear about mass shootings to the point where so many have become desensitized to such a tragedy. What a sad way to live. My brain can’t fathom the emotions of innocent lives being gunned down doing innocent acts that each and every one of us do. Going to school, going to church, going to the grocery store. Basic humans interactions. To think someone you love won’t make it home because of the pride of those who refuse to evolve, who refuse to change, who refuse to open their small minds and remain blind to the facts. This isn’t a right or left issue. This isn’t political. THIS IS A HUMANITY ISSUE. How out of touch with reality do you have to be to not see that? How deep in the pockets of the people who fund you? That you can look in the mirror and be proud of who you are… politicians have the blood of so many lives on their hands for their failure to make changes. When most humans agree that basic background checks should be a necessity for owning a gun. They’ve gone and made it easier for anyone to go and repeat said tragedy’s again. There is nothing stopping this from happening day after day. They leave it up to chance when they have power to stop it all. It’s crazy that only in the USA is this something that happens more than days in the year. Politics fuels division, division fuels the hate, hate fuels the hearts, hate in the heart fuels the murder of the innocent. Get it together America for the sake of your own citizens. Get it together. 

Do ever feel like God gives you the same test you’ve gone through before just to see if you’ve grown from it? In this case, what if we continue to fail him as a whole? As his people, every time we don’t call to action simple things that would make this not as easy as it is to put a weapon of death into the hands of someone who has evil intentions. We need change, we need accountability. Not thoughts and prayers. We’ve done enough of those. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result. America is insane by definition. 

Welcome to America. Land of the free home of the DEAD by mass shooting. Enjoy your stay while you hav……

Life’s Florist

A mother waters her children,

she nurtures them,

plucks the weeds out of their life,

And does everything in her power to make sure they are ready to bloom when called to

A mother makes sure the environment around her young plants is up to standard 

A mother knows when her plants are lacking nutrients 

She tends carefully to her garden so that each plant gets the attention it requires

A harsh winter may come, but a mother knows a promising spring is always around the corner

Whether she knows it or not

A great mother is life’s florist

Leaves Grow Back With Time

As fall comes near we know that leaves will starting changing colors and hitting the ground soon. I went for a walk this morning and noticed a few falling ever so gently already. I then began to think deeper into the process of trees. Each year trees go through seasons of their own. And depending on their location, they may even go through disasters also. Wildfires, freezes, and hurricanes to name a few. Many trees can withstand such circumstances, but some cannot. This does not mean one tree was better or stronger that the other, only that it was not part of that trees path. A tree may die in a wildfire, but its nutrients return to the soil for it to spout again. If that isn’t the definition of overcoming the circumstances around you, then I don’t know what is. Need another example? Vegetation and forests are alive and well surrounding the Chernobyl nuclear disaster. And they have been as early as three years after the incident. Plants replace dead cells much easier than humans and animals. This is why they are so quick to adapt.
I come back around to say maybe human and tree lives aren’t as far apart as we may think. Let the leaves you shed be the negative thoughts and experiences you’ve encountered. Even in the midst of a personal disaster, know that you will survive. When you feel burnt down, know that you will sprout again. And as a tree releases oxygen for us to breathe, be the reason people around you feel alive. Be your best tree, and let your colors shine bright in all circumstances.

Olympic National Forest

Meet Me By The Lighthouse

I sit here as the sun sets and can only think of one thing. How the colors that light the sky represent your beauty. It’s hard to comprehend how God could paint a picture so perfect both in this world, and in a person. And although the sunset means a night sky is coming, God still sends the moon so that at all times a light is there to shine. Like you who shines ever so bright, even on your darkest of days. This world talks so often about its main source of light, the sun, and the moonlight which is a reflection of the sun. So I guess there is only one true source of light in this world. That may be true for most people on this earth, but they haven’t been blessed enough to know of you. See, you may be rarer than the sun in that you are a walking source of light, you are able to move. The sun only gets to sit still all day and let others drain it. But you? You get to pick and choose where you are and who has access to you. God radiates his light through you for others to see. In your love, in your care, in your heart, and in your soul. I know that nobody can be deemed perfect on this earth, but damn are you close. Only a fool would let you get away from his grasp. I’ve been that fool once, and I’ve felt like a fool ever since. And I know in this world second chances are hard to come by, but as I stare at this sunset I can only think of you. I would stare at this sunset forever, if it meant that you’d come too. This sunset has one thing missing, and that thing is only you. So won’t you meet me by the lighthouse where I’ll be waiting for you soon….

Why Would I Settle?

To settle means to resolve or to come to an agreement with. In life I believe there are certain things we should settle for and some we should never settle for. A lot of my logic comes from knowing God would want the best for me in all aspects of my life. He’s given us life and a purpose. So why would I settle for less than what I know or think is God’s best for me? Why would I settle for a love less than one that imitates God’s love for me? Why would I settle to be in an unhappy environment or workplace knowing it makes me miserable? Why would I settle with myself when I know I am capable of more? These are the thoughts that keep me going and wanting to better myself and my life day in and day out. We all strive to settle somewhere both here on earth and eventually in the heavens with God himself. But why not strive during your time here to bring about the two? Create your peaceful place, create your heaven on earth. I know it won’t compare to the real one, but it’ll make life and it’s hardships a little more bearable. Why would I settle? What areas are you finding yourself settling? And what will you do to go about changing that?

A Mirror’s Lies

Why is it that we fall victim to the mirrors lies everyday? Day after day we wake up and often times the first thing we do is look in to the closest mirror. As we look we tell ourselves to make a choice of being content or not, but this is only in the physical aspect. This is only 50% of who we are, if not less. We shall not tell ourselves our battle is lost without looking at the other 50% of who we are. If only there was a mirror to show who we are in the inside. Maybe then we could sleep a little better at night. Maybe then we would be a little more content with ourselves. A mirror will tell you that you aren’t good enough. A mirror will tell you that you’ve barely made any progress. A mirror will tell you that your flaws are overpowering. A mirror will allow you to believe the lies of someone else. If I could break every mirror in the world, I would, but then I’d have the worst luck ever. To save humanity from the mirror’s lies? I’d take that chance with no hesitation. As I’ve had my own battles with mirror’s and the lies they tell, but I never let them defeat me or my dreams. The weakness of the mirror is that it can‘t read my mind, it can’t comprehend my dreams, and it can’t see what I don’t show it. So why not smile every time I walk by It? The way a mirror lies, I can lie too. Even on my worst days I deserve to smile don’t I? I am alive and that’s plenty to smile about. As for tomorrow I’ll wake up get dressed, look in the mirror, smile, and tell it, “I‘ll see you around.”

Voices In My Head

So many times I lay awake in a dark room with no sound 

It’s at this time that the voices in my head are so loud

Because the same voices that bring me up, bring me down 

And how my insecurities get the best of me, when no one else is around 

Why this happens I do not know

But I do know that it keeps me from the best version of myself 

I feel so trapped in my mind, and I can’t scream for help

But at the same time I know my mind screams and yells

Who knew that you could scream in silence ?

Is this why a criminal commits to violence?

But the battle with yourself, it seems so timeless 

The voices in my head whisper I am worthless

Even if I bury my insecurities, they find their way to the surface

They allow me to question my life, and my purpose

I feel so empty inside and for unanswered questions my mind searches

Was it something I said? Was it something I did? Don’t tell me things are okay, my mind won’t let me sit around and pretend

And even if they were, I’d still find a way to confuse myself 

It’s crazy, why can I even mentally abuse myself

Why can’t I just choose myself

At least once, even a tiny bit of confidence please

It’s something I really need, 

let me free

let my fly 

let me go

There’s a world out there for me to get to know 

But why do I always feel so stuck in a hole?

The thirsting of my soul

is all that I know 

Everyones laughing at me like a comedy show

If there is a bottom why do I feel like Im 30 feet below ?

The good days pass only for worse ones to come

Where my mental state tells me to go and get the gun

Speaking so loudly about why my life should be done 

That I’m a bum who doesn’t deserve to see the sun

The voices tell me the devil isn’t so bad 

But they only tell me this when I feel sad 

They tell me hell is heaven but I know it could never be

Please demons you can’t fool me 

Back away, I need my space 

To contemplate 

To keep me sane 

Because I know it’s only me who can protect my brain

God says without me things won’t be the same 

I stay strong 

All along, 

The road of my deepest fears 

Even if I know the devil keeps demons near 

I won’t give in, 

To the sin 

That could end my life within. 

Looking Forward

If I told you life gets better would you believe me? 

You may not be able to control the weather or the scenery

And you may never easily find the meaning of what life truly is 

But, your life is precious as a ruby is.

You may live and you may learn 

You may stumble at every turn 

But I’ll be here 

To tell you there is nothing to fear

Because better days are always near.

So how the wind blows, let your love flow with it

And don’t spend too much time with the reminiscing

Because you never know what you may be missing.

Live life adventurously, spreading the positive energy

Giving others memories and reasons to remember me

As long as there’s good vibes, and great people along for the ride

This will be the true beauty of life 🎨

Diamonds in the Rough

The most precious things in life do not come easy. You may search all your life for that one thing you know will bring you instant satisfaction. Whether it be a physical object or a mental enlightenment, the joy that follows the accomplishment sticks with you for as long as you can remember. The joy comes from more than just the completion of it, the joy comes as an emotional toll that has built up over the journey it’s taken you to achieve such great things. The journey of achievement is where you shape who you are and who you will become. As diamonds do not always start as diamonds, you also, are not born into your final form. But with each small step you take you get closer to your end goal. Steps can be mental or physical, it all begins with a mindset and discipline. Pressure helps diamonds come to life and when you apply that to yourself and the people around you, you will begin to flourish. Now you are a diamond in the rough, waiting to be found. 💎

“God is the Greatest”

“God is the Greatest,” the words uttered from a proud man as he made record time in his hike up pinnacle mountain. These words stuck with me because of how loud they were, and they gave me chills down my spine as the man screamed them. I had to take a step back and contemplate what made me feel such a sensation, was it a coincidence? Was it God? Was it both? Whatever it was, I was happy to be there, to hear those words, to feel those chills and to smile knowing God was the reason. That God would reveal himself to me after a long hike up a mountain, it all came full circle for my thoughts. I often relate life to mountains and valleys and I know that’s why I enjoy hiking so much. Each step is meaningful, toward a destination, has surroundings, and a view of its own. This all leads to the bigger picture, what you are hiking up to see. So like life every day is different and everyone’s journey up (to their goal) is different,  how it would be in hiking. Yes we may take the same paths up and down, but no two exact steps are the same. The timing, and resting points are all different. Which is what I would compare life to when it feels a little too routine. Where would you be without a resting point from time to time? Rest is natural, and necessary. So don’t go burning yourself out, or trying to compare your hike to someone else’s. Be uniquely you and be proud of it. How your creator pictured it. Experience your God is the greatest moment.

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