The Sun Will Shine Again

In this moment as you are I hope this finds you well, but as many other things in life that is unpredictable. If this finds you during a time of trouble, or struggle you are not alone nor will you ever be. You were not born into this world alone, and you will not leave it alone as for the day you pass God is waiting for you with open arms. Many times we let our temporary struggle overwhelm us. Our minds, our thoughts, and our attitudes are all affected by a struggle which may seem big to us in our present tense, but later down the line we’ll look back and wonder why were we so anxious about this said moment. We can’t help but to try to control this struggle. Or wonder why things aren’t going our way (the way we want), but as in most cases we are not the causes of our struggles. Our struggles are used to teach us, and they may be given to us from a higher being. Yes, God wants to see us be the best version of ourselves, but in order for us to get to that point we need to make certain changes on the inside. We are humbled at the grace of God, and only when we recognize this will our struggle seem not so great. We will overcome every and any obstacle as we are born with the power to do so. Our journeys allow us to find such powers with discipline and control, and if we conquer ourselves and our minds we are then at peace with not only ourselves, but our life. ☀️

No matter the moment, no matter the problem, the struggle, the situation you may feel stuck in. It to will pass, and the sun will shine again. 

Mountains & Valleys

We all start somewhere, some higher up than others, but no matter where we start we are bound to reach our destination. In life there are many destinations, some more fulfilling than others, and each destination has its own journey. Our journeys are what help us grow and learn the most and ultimately are the biggest part of who we are. From the people we meet, obstacles we encounter, and the good days along the way they all have their own purpose. The trials we face are the valleys God take us through, while the celebrations and our happiest days are our mountain tops. Of course we would prefer being on top of life’s mountain all the time, but what would that mean for our hope, faith, and trust? Would we not believe as much in such things? Would turn our backs when given everything we desire? We would be full of ourselves, thinking we are what the world revolves around. A world full of egos wouldn’t be a world full of peace at all. So through the mountains and valleys of life know they are each for a higher purpose and that each purpose will one day be revealed in the best version of yourself. 

A Grandma’s Love

A grandma’s love is as true as love will ever be 

You do not have to question such a love because you feel it in her hugs, you feel it in her presence, and you see it all around her in the family she’s helped create. You remember such a love in memories from your childhood, such as trips to McDonald’s, sleepovers with the cousins, dropping hamburger patties on the floor, almost starting a microwave fire in her house, and learning your grandmas real name for the first time by answering her house phone. These memories were always easy for me to remember, but now they will replay in my head just a little more often than before. Which I do not mind at all because they actually make me laugh and smile and keep me satisfied in knowing such a woman. A grandmas love is there when you look at her children (our parents, aunts and uncles) who raise us and love us in such a way that they were taught to love by their family before us. So we will continue to see it right before our eyes and keep that love alive for generations so that it is never forgotten. A grandmas love knows no limits and has no borders because she will go to the ends of the earth to see her grandchildren smile. A grandmas love was more than the sneaky cash she would give us before departing a summer visit, it was the holidays, it was the happiness in going out of town and having a place that felt like a second home. I would sleep on my grandmas living room couch forever if it meant having her here with us one last time, but I know she wouldn’t want that for me because she goes out of her way to make you feel as comfortable as possible. And seeing your grandma proud is a feeling you will never forget, whether it’s feeling her happiness by reading her handwriting on birthday and graduation cards, or her smiling at pictures of your biggest accomplishments it is a surreal satisfying sensation. These are only some of the things I will carry with me throughout my days about my grandma and the unconditional love she devoted to us. A grandma’s love is special and sticks with you forever. 

And the only reason I know how to describe such a love is because a grandma’s love was given to me. ❤️ Rest In Peace my angel.

Our Growth

Because you only grow how you allow yourself to grow 

What you water your soul and mind with is like a garden of flowers 

A flower feeds itself with the biggest and brightest star we can see from earth, the sun.

So feed yourself with the brightest light you can find for your life and settle for nothing less.

Water yourself with natural waters and ways of love that refresh you every now and then. Waters that teach you and allow you to grow naturally not having to change the type of flower you are,

But a light and a water that gives you what you need to be more beautiful than you already are. Without it you die quicker but with it you live longer and have so much more to show for it. Through many seasons a flower lives, dies, has ups and downs, but when the right season comes, your season, you will shine.

Adaptation

One of the certainties of life is the process of change. Change can either be perceived as good or bad depending on the circumstances. And often times we are never in control of the things that are changing, but only to how we react to the changes happening before us. As human beings we are blessed with the ability to adapt in a timely manner. Whether it is a physical, mental, emotional, financial, or circumstantial change we begin to process it immediately after we take notice of it happening. Now we will each react to such change differently because we are all our own person, and certain changes will take longer to cope with than others. We will each have different coping mechanisms and all of our circumstances will never be the same which is why we have to take life with eyes wide and an open mind so that we are selfless to others. The ability to adapt so quickly is a gift in itself given to us, although we may see it in animals with their ability to evolve and stay alive, it may take them years and years, but for us as humans we evolve on the fly. We are an ever learning species, we shall learn from our history and experiences in our past to move forward and get over the humps which may seem monumental to us at times. So, let us not be afraid of change or the fear of the unknown and take life by the head to conquer what it is we are supposed to be. Let ourselves become open to vulnerability because to be vulnerable is to be courageous. And if we are ever changing, then let’s react to make it changing for the better. The better version of ourselves, the better people/things around us, and a better world to live in. 

Thoughts from a Mountain

These are my thoughts from a mountain 

The views make up for all the times I felt like drowning 

For the times I felt like I was the center of all my pain surrounding 

Grateful to say I don’t feel it now, because I’m on top of a mountain

The views feels like when you’re searching for God and you’ve finally found him

Like there was a purpose for all the things he was allowing

The corner of darkness is finally rounding.

When you’re on top of a mountain everything feels small

Your problems, life, you don’t feel it at all

With no cell service there’s nobody to call

With one slip up you could die from a fall 

So you got to focus 

Because on top of that mountain is where hope is 

But on the way up is where the slippery slope is 

So every step can make a difference 

Until we reach the top there is no quitting

Because you don’t want to find out what you’re missing 

The views God has given

To us as his children

So we search around the world for the gifts that fulfill him.”

Seeing Gods work in nature brings me nothing but peace. The way nature has its’ purpose and role in each of our lives whether we acknowledge it or not is true. Whether it’s the oxygen we breathe, the sights we get to see or just looking up right where we are God deserves our praise and thanks for allowing us to live on his earth. Traveling and seeing sights is something that brings me happiness I can’t explain sometimes, I am taken back often and at a loss for words. When things are going wrong or I am having a bad day I often think back to the feeling I get when hiking up a mountain or seeing something new for the first time and it refreshes my mind quickly. We often need these types of refreshes to remain sane because dealing with people/things is never easy. So it’s best for us to find something that brings us peace and keep it at the front of our minds to ease us through each day. 

Wandering Love

The feeling so new 

Of talking to you

So many questions and learning you through 

And at the time it’s the only thing I want to do 

Take all of my time, you are so worth it 

From all the heart break and pain we both deserve this

As I do everything I can 

To make sure you feel the same 

Because you’re the only thought on my brain 

Thoughts of us drive me insane 

Is it too soon?

To be this excited

But once you discover a spark, isn’t it easy to ignite it ?

So let’s take this spark and light it

If we feel the same then why fight it?

All the things that made me who I am, You know now

If you know my deepest fears, then why slow down?

Because I swear I could get used to having you around 

Your love seems like a great ocean and I want to drown 

Or even every great love song producing one sound

You’re love brought me from my depression and let my heart put the gun down 

Is this a premature love ? 

Is this heaven sent from above?

Am I coming on too much?

But too much love is never a bad thing, I know this because I’ve seen it half assed

And I never want to look back

You give me life, 

And butterflies 

You tell the truth, and kill the lies 

I know you see it in my eyes

The way you make me feel alive

You are the one, it’s do or die. 

Oh but where did you go?

Did you get lost along the road?

On your way back home

Because I’m sitting here alone 

As my mind continues to roam 

And for you my heart still searches daily 

Please come back, won’t you save me?

I want the feeling of you driving me crazy 

Do you still think of me at all?

Would I be stupid if I called ?

To try to pick us back up from a fall

Because the burden is hard to haul 

I’ll wait for you, I know you’re out there 

And if you’re lost at sea please just send a flare.

The Journey Ahead

Can you see it? 

The long road from the journey you thought you couldn’t control

So full of a younger version of you, not knowing what to do 

All the times you may have been lost or confused 

Or maybe even on the verge of giving up from the devil’s abuse 

I know life gets low, with no where to go 

Because you can lose yourself just going with flow 

And if you feel some type of way, it’s because it’s hitting home 

But just know, you’re not alone

Please be careful with your thoughts, and with how you let them roam

Because I’ve been to that evil zone, and it feels like the dark side of the moon

How every negative thought can consume

Your mind at once

At the same time, your mind it hunts 

For the bright lights of positivity, 

Hey there it feels like months since you last visited me 

Happy me was just a distant memory 

Until I remembered I had a friend in me 

So take good care of yourself 

And be aware of your mental health 

don’t be afraid to ask for help 

Because many felt what you have felt

Life is priceless 

Even through crisis, try to find your way to where God’s light is

Show the world your beautiful soul, as you conquer all your goals

And tell others where you’ve been, the hidden depths within 

The travels that were far, and the scars 

And to be proud of where you’re from and where you are. 

Times Truths

The truth about time is we can never control it 

So we should cherish our life and own every moment

So if you trust the process then trust where you’re going 

But be careful with times illusions 

Because it could feel at a stand still and then like it won’t stop moving 

So choose wisely with your time and what’re doing

And don’t dwell too much on the losing

And Make sure it’s positive energy you’re consuming.

Trust that there’s a plan for each of us 

And that the hardships is what God uses to teach us

Because he’s promised he will never leave us.

So wake up everyday and be thankful to see dawn to dusk

And in the time in between spread and do what you love 

learn to never take life for granted 

Because the things we’ve been handed

never really came on demand.

Patience truly is a virtue

Learn to accept, face, and let go of the things that hurt you

Because in the end those things never really deserved you

Now there’s a time for everything but what will you do to make time work for you? 

The Importance of Finding Yourself

Why would one take on the challenge of learning another person when they do not know themselves yet? Could you possibly  treat someone new better than you treat yourself you think? I think not. I think the most important relationship you can have before anyone on this earth is with yourself. The way you think about yourself, the way you talk about yourself, the way you see yourself in the mirror are all indicators of what level of intimacy you are on with yourself at the moment. I believe that we each learn to love subconsciously through the people and experiences we are put through over the course of a lifetime. We take from the things we see others do out of love or so called love and turn them into our own version of love. But through this process of learning to love others we often forget to provide ourselves with the amount of time and effort we need to live peacefully. We hesitate to put ourselves first out of fear of being selfish. Selfishness has a negative connotation surrounding it but isn’t always a bad thing. You may be selfless for as long as you pretend to be but each day that passes that you do not consider your own thoughts, your own feelings or form your own opinions you are letting your mind deteriorate slowly. You were given this life for a purpose, and even on the days you struggle so deeply to find that purpose know there is one. To fulfill and be fulfilled. To serve others while you serve yourself. You may even serve others seconds but make sure you yourself have eaten first. If you so choose to ignore the true feelings of your mind, heart, and soul they will one day all come crashing down and force a breakdown. You will question why, and how things got to this point but you were so blindly putting others before yourself that you didn’t have time to stop and notice how you truly felt. You are not at fault for wanting to be a good human being but you shall treat others how you treat yourself. If you love yourself it makes it easier to love others and to know how to truly care for others. If you go through life with anger and hate, it will eventually show in how your relationships and friendships turn out and with how you treat others. As love conquers hate and light does dark you shall too conquer yourself and any doubts you’ve ever had. You go through life living, learning, and experiencing, and you will make mistakes and things will not always turn out how you want them to. This is many times out of our control what we can control how we respond and how to deal with the situation a second time if it were to occur. Mistakes help us grow and get better we shall not pout about how life is not going our way but to thank God for giving us life and another day to help the tables turn into our favor. Where God guides you he has prepared you.